Making progress

Well,  I put off going and having CD3 bloodwork. The day my period started I told Super Husband that we needed to have a talk about resuming fertility treatments. We were both busy and didn’t end up having a chance to talk until that Saturday – and Friday would have been day 3. So we missed the boat for this month, but it gave us an opportunity to have a good talk and make sure that we are on the same page. And that is worth waiting another month, I think.

Today I had my WTF? appointment with my RE. Super Husband came along, his first time ever, and I appreciated his new committment to be more supportive throughout this whole process.

It was both enlightening and a little disturbing to see my embryo report from IVF. Of the 8 eggs, only 2 had normal nucleii. Those two fertilized. One arrested at 3 cell stage. The other made it to the 10 cell that I had transferred. It had a “fair” rating. Certainly not ideal circumstances.

He then went on to talk to me about my high FSH and how we really needed a new CD3 bloodwork result for him to give me clear advice on how to move forward. (d’oh!) But we were still able to make a game plan.

If my FSH comes back in the normal range, we will do up to 3 IUIs with injectables.

If my FSH comes back around the same as last time (10-13) we will try IVF again. 

If my FSH comes back higher then 13, we’re kinda shit-outta-luck. He didn’t want to go so far as to tell me that I would never be pregnant. But he was very alarmed that my levels are so high for how “young” I am. So if it’s higher then 13, Super Husband and I need to have some serious discussions about adoption or living child-free.

Needless to say, a lot is riding on the results of this test.

Normally, I would be freaking the F**k out, but since I am now balanced, fertile, and calm, I took a deep breath and decided that everything is going to be OK.  We are planning a most excellent Colorado vacation for a week in August, and that is good distraction. When I think about the vacation, I think about how I will be pregnant and just how lovely it will be to float in our hotel pool under the cottonwood trees. I can’t imagine myself not pregnant on the vacation. I hope this dosn’t cause me pain as August grows closer.

I’m also enrolling in a study of women with premature high FSH. It is looking at the link between POF, high FSH, and the genetic mutation Fragile X. It might prove interesting, and it might make our choices a whole lot tougher.  Time will tell. For now, I wait.

(PS, I’m on CD14, with a beautiful positive OPK and an anticipated temp rise tomorrow. Let’s cross our fingers that I never have to take that CD3 bloodwork shall we?)