Post #97

November 10, 2009 at 10:10 pm 4 comments

I am quickly running out of snappy post titles that reflect the fact that nothing is happening in my neck of the woods. I’ve got another acupuncturing tomorrow with the fertility specialist, and one on Thursday with the pain specialist. (Yes, that nerve is still causing me trouble) I’m basically just trying to live my life as normally as possible, while also taking my BBT and analyzing my saliva every morning, remembering that OPK every afternoon, and eating my special fertility diet all.the.f*ing.time.

I’m also hoping beyond hope that all this might help me to get knocked up on my own, thus sparing me from the awful pain of having to decide what to do next. I’ve always been indecisive, and never a fan of roller coasters. Infertility is really a special kind of hell for me.

I’m also searching for some new blogs to read. I would love suggestions, preferably people with a good sense of humor who aren’t pregnant. While I am tremendously happy for those who I follow who are currently pregnant or parenting, I recently had the revelation that 90% of my blogroll had moved beyond the place where I was. I still enjoy reading those blogs (when I am in the proper headspace… after all it is encouraging to know that treatment works for some people) and I still welcome their comments (Kate, this means you!) but I’ve realized that once someone becomes pregnant, I have a much harder time commenting and offering advice and support in return. Because while I know infertility, but I don’t know pregnancy… and I suddenly feel like the the lactose intolerant person at the dairy convention.

(Edit: I think it’s actually more like a vegan at a lactose intolerance convention?)

Ok, must remove the laptop from my lap now… I’m pretty sure that’s on the list of things I am not supposed to be doing!


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ooooommmmm Don’t want to be anything, where I don’t know when to stop

4 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Womb For Improvement  |  November 11, 2009 at 4:25 pm

    Hmm. Not sure who you read at the moment but Nut In May writes exceptionally well, combining humour with heartache.

  • 2. Jem  |  November 12, 2009 at 6:05 pm

    I know what you mean about not wanting to read pregant blogs. It’s just too painful. Check out the list of blogs I read (probably the same ones you do). Most of them are not PG.

  • 3. Kate (Bee In The Bonnet)  |  November 16, 2009 at 10:13 am

    I really do know what you mean about finding blogs of people who aren’t pregnant. There were so many times during this ridiculous journey to pregnancy where I just couldn’t bear to read about anyone getting pregnant, continuing to be pregnant, giving birth– and at times, even reading about someone pursuing treatments was really hard because it wasn’t my time yet, and I was very jealous of people who actually got to even try.

    So, I totally get it.

    That said, I’d suggest perusing Mel’s blogroll. She’s pretty good at updating the status of blogs, noting those where people are pregnant or parenting after whatever diagnosis they’ve gotten. I found it to be a great source of comfort when I just couldn’t endure another “oh, gee! I tried for seven whole months and got knocked up naturally!” blog.

    I am sending all my best thoughts westward, really hoping that accupuncture and the fertility diet do the trick. And, though I totally understand not wanting to meet me for a variety of reasons, just in the event that you are around and up for it, I will be in your city for Thanksgiving, probably leaving on Saturday, in case you want to grab a cup of coffee or something.

  • 4. Mad Hatter  |  December 17, 2009 at 12:08 am

    Hey, thanks for commenting on my blog – yep! I am not pregnant, so I meet your standards! 😉
    Glad I’ve found your blog, too – looking forward to following you and supporting you on your journey!


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After 5 IUIs, 2 IVFs, and the diagnosis of diminished ovarian reserve at the ripe old age of 29, I am now looking for information on embryo donation and adoption. I'm taking a break from blogging but will return when our path out of the world of IF becomes more clear.

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